i've been told if you want to make it in this world

[unamaga]

Okay. I have to get this off my chest ...

My first fandom...was Sailor Moon. I shipped Serena/Darien and read stories that had everyone matching up with their perfect someone and living happily ever after. Sometimes there were even period-set fics where Serena was a spunky maiden with mystical powers, and, of course, Prince Darien was taken in by her fiery personality and winsome hairdo. They, also, lived happily ever after.

Next up were Dragonball Z and Gundam Wing and I--oh god, this is so hard--I loved Relena. A lot. I think I might have actually put my first fic on ff.net because of her and Heero. It was called "The Envious Moon", I was probably thirteen, and thinking about it now makes my grammatical soul cry out in pain. This is, of course, where I was introduced to both the concept of a "lemon" and the concept of "yaoi".

I feel a little better now. *deep breath* Here, have a ficlet.

Title: Push
Pairing: implied Sam/Dean
Rating: R
Notes: written for chickypooh

"You're kind of a freak," Meg says, crouching down in front of Sam. She leans forward, hands on his thighs for balance. "Fucking your own brother, Sammy? Tsk, tsk."

Sam bites down on the dirty, makeshift gag.

"I always knew he was a sick puppy, but you? I had high hopes for you." She straddles him, hips canting forward like she's riding a horse, and presses close so they're cheek-to-cheek.

"He likes to fuck you while you're tied up, doesn't he? He stuffs his fingers in your mouth so you can't scream and just rams in hard without even prepping you," she whispers. "I bet he has toys, too. For when he's punishing you real good. Does he whip you, Sam? Do you like it?"

He whimpers, trying to turn his head away from her, deny it all, do anything but sit and take it.

"Oh," she says, sounding pleased. "I think I've struck a nerve."

Meg's tiny hand closes around his chin, forcing him to face forward and look at her. Her eyes are drooping in their sockets, her skin dull and grey. There's a small dribble of blood trickling from the side of her mouth. She's dead, Sam knows she's dead and this has to be a dream, but her putrid breath is so real and the prick of her fingernails against his jaw actually hurts.

She smiles and her teeth are rotted through.

"You're going to hell, baby. And I'm gonna meet you there."

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OMG, lookit what Tali did!! SHE WROTE PORN based off this!! *flails*

So, in keeping with the theme of this post, what's your dirty little secret? ETA: prompts are still open!

Comments

[shibbyfangirl.livejournal.com]

I um...used to read Darien/Serena fics too. And then got introduced to femmeslash with Haruka/Michiru...and then I think I knew yaoi fro Seiya/Mamoru first? Maybe..I can't recall. It was uh...years ago? when I was 14. LOL

[unamaga.livejournal.com]

You know, I feel like a dolt for admitting this, but it took me months to figure out about Haruka/Michiru. MONTHS. *hangs head*

[talilov.livejournal.com]

This needs a prequel where she watches them sexing with a whip and a gag and the sex and the whip and the sex and the Dean with the gag and the penetration and the roughness and the sex and the whip and the thrusting!!!!

Ahem, I think I made my point clear.

[unamaga.livejournal.com]

HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA. Omg, I love you so, so much.

[talilov.livejournal.com]

Not as much as I love you!!

[talilov.livejournal.com]

In other words, this was hot and freaky. She's a scary bitch. I hope DEAN COMES AND SAVES SAM SOON. Because I like him getting hurt, but necrophelia crosses a line that incest never even gets near...well actuall...hmm, I just killed my own argument...*sexes a dead body* I think the hotness in this came from the fact that she was describing it all (and my imagination just went BOOM) and she was talking dirty and we all know Sam kinda almost liked it and so there needs to be a sequel (after the prequel has been written) in which Sam sits down and pours his heart out to Dean and does the emo!bitch face and says, "I kinda like what the dead chick was doing to me...WHAT DOES THIS MEAN?" and Dean says, "You liked it when she went like this? And what about this? And this?" And Sam *resists* at first, but then spreads his legs like a whore and takes all of Dean in and he likes it very very much. And then they finish and Sam is panting for breath and quivering and Dean just smirks and says, "I'm a better lay than any dead chick." Or some such thing and just guh *ded*

[unamaga.livejournal.com]

DUDE. I think you may have just mashed a few of my buttons, there. With the "how about this"es and the Sam giving in...*flaps* MAYBE YOU SHOULD WRITE THIS.

[talilov.livejournal.com]

MAYBE I ALREADY AM!! *flails*

[scarlett-o.livejournal.com]

Very nice, my dear. what's your dirty little secret? Isn't the fact that gay incest porn gets me hot a dirty enough secret? *g*

[unamaga.livejournal.com]

Psha, that's not dirty anymore, didn't you know? It's, like, standard or something.

*kiss* I hope you don't mind that I sent plutogirl at you for layoutness?

[coverd-n-rain.livejournal.com]

eeeps! I am stuck in between finding this really hot and really creepy...cause dude...I mean...*shivers* lol. I think talilov should DEFINITELY write the next bit if you arent....cause...dude, THAT sounds like a hot (and happy) way to end this! lol.

My dirty little secret? hmmm... well, once upon a time, long LONG ago I entered the fandom of Harry Potter and read *lip bite* ....Harry/Hermione. *gasps and covers face* I know! I can't...ugh. its just painful now. lol. Thank god for moonythestrals... she introduced me to Draco/Harry...and from that point on any fandom she has given me I run off to. Then again, she kind of owns my soul in general. lol.

well, I suppose that wasn't very dirty. hmm...need more secrets...

[unamaga.livejournal.com]

HOMG. I shipped Harry/Hermione, too, baby--hardcore! Like, I even surfed ff.net and stuff. Oh god. *clings* And then I read something by mistful and I was dumped on my head in H/D fandom.

We're, like, twins, except not. :D

[talilov.livejournal.com]

http://stained-by-sin.livejournal.com/7607.html#cutid1

Part II of the dead chick porning ;D Hope you enjoy!!

[dullemarulle.livejournal.com]

I kind of liked Meg when she was straddling Sam in Shadow and this is the better version of that scene.

Dirty secret? Over the last months I've come to reconsider what I define as dirty... and my other secrets are just boring rl ones. I'm not that mysterious, I guess...

[unamaga.livejournal.com]

I'm not the only one who thought Meg was sexy, right? 'Cause...yum.

What do you mean about the dirty bit? Like, fandom has broadened your horizons?

[chickyoops.livejournal.com]

*pathetic whimper*

[unamaga.livejournal.com]

*opens arms*

[inderpal.livejournal.com]

Uhm, okay, confessions ... I may have read and shipped Harry/Hermione and Legolas/OC and it makes me cringe thinking back now.
But I'm also glad, because there I discovered the joy that is slash and H/D.

Also, there needs to be more of this ficlet, seriously!

[unamaga.livejournal.com]

Apparently half of us shipped H/Hr at one point and then changed over to H/D. This is...strange. *conspiracy face*

Re: more--see talilov's comment up there ^

[raynedanser.livejournal.com]

Oh God... Is it wrong that Meg is still sexy when she's dead?

*hides*

But yes. And then Dean and Sam need to have make up sex that may not necessarily be about the schmoop. ;-)

[unamaga.livejournal.com]

NO. NO IT IS NOT WRONG. *flaps helplessly* Her voice! It's like...!! Yis.

And, dude, have you seen talilov's comment up top there? She might be writing a sequel in which the boys sex each other up. Prod her!

[ilovesn.livejournal.com]

Loved it

*giggles* but you already know that

:D

ROFL

It was VERY creppy

*hugs*

[unamaga.livejournal.com]

Thanks. :D

[bayouskye.livejournal.com]

That Meg is a BITCH for not letting us know she was watching so we could come watch too!

*makes serious I mean itface*

It's not nice to keep secrets like that all to yourself! I don't care if she is dead, she needs to learn how to share.

*arms flailing*

[unamaga.livejournal.com]

We should tie her up. Yes. *coughs*